im drunk

i spent my whole night with my friends.. just hangin out..
i wanna be relaxed.. they poired some G.S.m on my glass..
i drunk it.. and now, it has made me feel so dizzy..
but what makes it great was that my WOUNDS in my hands
doesn't hurt.. i feel so numb this day..
i wanna laugh out loud but i cant..
i miss him so much.. dunno how to express it..
i dunno how to say it.. can't text him either 'cause i know he doesn't care..
hiding my feelings kills me..
i dunno what to do.. please help me!